I believe in Christ
(shared by Amy)
I will post what Elder McConkie's wife shared..
General Conference, April 1985
(Elder Bruce R. McConkie died thirteen days after giving
The "I Believe in Christ Legacy" by Jane P. Merrill
(Sister Merrill attends the same ward as Amelia McConkie,
the widow of Elder Bruce R. McConkie who passed away in 1985.)
Recently in our Fast and Testimony meeting, we had the
opportunity to hear Sister Amelia McConkie bear her testimony. As she began
to speak, I felt strongly impressed to take notes, recognizing that it was a
rare opportunity to hear a first hand account of Elder Bruce R. McConkie's
last few weeks. After church I wrote up the account and
then took it to Sister McConkie to make sure it was
correct, and to get her approval.
Sister McConkie's story:
"In Relief Society today our closing song was 'I Believe
in Christ.' Then, as we began our Fast and Testimony meeting, our opening
song was 'I Believe in Christ.' This co-incidence made me think that perhaps
it's time I share with you how we got this hymn.
"Some 15 years ago, my husband Bruce R. McConkie was very
ill. The doctor told us he had two months to live, at the most. However,
Bruce felt he still had some things he wanted to do. The Brethren gave him a
blessing and his family gathered to share their faith and prayers. He lived
an additional fourteen months, although he was very ill much
of that time. He never thought he wasn't going to get
better. He told me time and time again that this was the Lord's test for him,
and that he had enough faith in and of himself to be healed.
"Early in February, on an overcast day much like today,
I decided to make a pie to cheer him up, as he loved pie. While I was doing
this he lay on the floor in our bedroom, which he often did. He had a pencil
and paper in hand and was writing. Then he came into the
kitchen where I was working and said, 'Do you want to
hear what I'm going to talk about in Conference?'
"The pie was almost finished and I wanted to get it in
the oven, but I soon realized that you don't make pies while he's talking
like this. So I stopped and sat down to listen. He read to me his talk, and
I said, 'It's the most beautiful thing you've ever written, but how will you
ever do it?' He was so ill and so weak. 'I don't know,' he answered, 'but I
"His doctor was so worried. 'You've got a dying man on
your hands; you must not let him speak at conference. If he tries, he will
collapse on nationwide television.' But I couldn't try to stop him. He was
determined to do it and nothing could have stopped him. Our son said, 'I
don't think there's anything Dad wanted to do more than preach that last
sermon at Conference.' So our children fasted together, asking that their
father would have the physical and emotional strength to fulfill his wish.
"During the Saturday morning session of April 1985
General Conference, a thin Bruce R. McConkie took his place at the pulpit
and despite his weakened condition, he bore majestic testimony to the truths
so integral to his life and mission. He testified, 'I am one
of his witnesses, and in a coming day I shall feel the
nail marks in his hands and in his feet and shall wet his feet with my tears.
But I shall not know any better then than I know now that he is God's
Almighty Son, that he is our Savior and Redeemer, and that salvation comes
in and through his atoning blood and in no other way.' (Excerpted from his
"The following Sunday Elder
Packer visited him at home and gave him a blessing in which he told Bruce he
should 'quit resisting the will of the Lord.' We both knew what he meant. At
the conclusion, with tears running down his face, Bruce looked at me as I
stood at the foot of the bed, and said, 'Amelia, do you know what he just
did?' 'Yes,' I
answered, 'he has sealed you unto death.'
"That was so hard on Bruce. He wanted so much to live.
But as I showed Elder Packer out, Bruce got up, folded the bedspread as he
always did at night, got ready for bed, and got under the covers. Always
before he would insist that I make the bed and he would lay on top of it,
fully dressed. But this was his way of saying to the Lord, 'I am bowing to
your will.' He passed away a short time later."
What a great blessing to have the beautiful hymn, "I
Believe In Christ", taken from his testimony.
As recorded and written by Jane P. Merrill September 6,